Let me tell you my untold story of Boom Festival 2023:
I tried to arrive at the festival at the earliest possible time – at 6 am when they opened the gates – as I was told that the good spots at the artist camp are quickly taken.
I arrived at eleven…
The only spot in the shade left was next to a camper van – having to stick right next to it.
I asked the lady sitting in it if it was okay if I put my tent right next to her van.
“Yes, sure!”
Later that day, I realized that she was the only person to have a camper van in the artist camp 🤷🏽♂️
The next day, I understood why… once I met her with her entourage…
Lex Empress…
Transdimensional being, psychic… and the voice of Boom Festival.
Apart from being the voice of Boom, she sings soulsongs… a song she channels for you…
Ok, I’ll try 😉
Fast-forward: Before my awakening ceremony in November, the Shaman said, I heal with my voice, my words and my hands. So, searching for someone to potentially help me with further developing my voice I remembered Lex offering desert retreats.
So, a month ago, I checked the internet… ah… the next retreat fits right in between my trip to Vienna, where I set the foundation for the rest of my life, and my dad’s 75th birthday.
So then… I went to the desert…
On the first afternoon of the retreat, Lex channeled my second soul song… mentioning an emerald at the core of my work.
That made me remember what another psychic said, whom I had consulted two years ago. She said that in another dimension, I used to be a king and a seer who had an emerald that gave him the power to see – being clairvoyant. She continued to say that my purpose is to be a seer.
That night, I told Lex about the story of the king, who was clairvoyant through the emerald.
“That’s your purpose, my love.”
🙏🏽
The desert was a profound experience. Old patterns came up, and I also kept distracting myself. Yet, something happened on a deeper level.
Soulsong… it’s your individual medicine song, full of codes and hints for your healing, growth and life…
At the end of the retreat, I received my final soulsong.
Lex explained that what I might experience now is the last resistance before fully surrendering.
And then she revealed to me, that us meeting at Boom was no coincidence.
And then the empress said she sees who I really am…
Yesterday, I had my initiation into the next level of my being, meeting the toad medicine again together with the most powerful shaman I have worked with thus far.
A week ago I had a first ceremony that was… intense… beyond words…
It felt like exorcism!
In the integration the shaman described he saw me having been a Sufi healer in the 14th century who had a considerable following. I was healing through my voice and with my words. Also, he saw powerful blue light coming out of my hands and that they had a strong healing power. But, eventually, I would abuse my power and my followers turned against me. Interestingly an astrologer once told me that my calling is to be a metaphysical teacher, yet I prefer not to have a following… which, in fact, I never wanted but is, kinda, a paradox.
I told the shaman that the ceremony felt like an initiation but it was not completed.
“You need to ask for forgiveness for your wrongdoings.”
So we decided to close the process with another ceremony.
And then, my second one, yesterday… there is no words that could possibly describe that birth experience.
I kept releasing the pain and deep shit that weighted me down – accumulated for more than 700 years – through my heart with the sound A…
Slowly rising onto my feet…
Eventually rising strong…
Being enveloped in golden light…
Eventually the sound becoming a roar…
My physical body exploding into light…
As my inner sun rising…
All my cells radiating golden light…
Eventually spreading my wings…
Expanding into infinity…
While seeing my sun…
My creating of life…
The embodiment of pure love…
…
Intuitively I know what it means…
Being a sun…
Perceiving life through the heart…
Living truth through love…
Serving with my being…
Healing by being…
Serving by shining…
…
Returning from infinity, the shaman gave me his drum…
Closing the ceremony myself…
Drumming my own beat…
Collecting my gifts…
Being…
Eventually closing my initiation myself 🙏🏽
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This morning I go to meditate with the sunrise at my favorite spot where I do so for almost a year…
At the sunrise, for the first time I see dolphins in the sea…
And then, due to a surreal occurrence, I “coincidently” see a tarot card that exactly mirrors my experience during the ceremony.
Not only did I stand there in such a manner at the pinnacle of my ascent, but the description of the card also describes with the downloads and insights I gained during the ceremony.
Yet, the sun did not merely linger behind me; it dwelled within and encompassed me, a radiant presence both inside and all around me.
What I see in you is much bigger than what people see. You are a creator of love, light, and life. You are a goddess that should be loved like one ☺️
Five years ago, I wrote this poem when you captured my heart.
14 days later, you said you wanted a child from me.
I have fulfilled your wish, yet your gratitude was to deny me.
I wasn’t good enough, neither for you nor your family, nor your society.
I don’t really understand what that means.
Your spiritual teacher told you, a child from a person with my heart is a true gift.
And, I believe, every father is worthy of being its child’s parent.
And also, which society am I not good enough for? Not good enough for the Wörthersee high-society 🤣
My ancestors were the kings of Iran ✌🏽
And I, personally, have accomplished more for humanity than most of the people you personally know.
The only crime I ever committed, was to lead you back into your heart once you wanted to deny me to witness our child’s birth.
By what right were you going to do that?
Your spiritual teacher has told you several times in my presence, that you treat OUR child as if she were YOURS alone.
I guess the inconvenient truths that she told were the reason you stopped visiting her.
And my perspective that I expressed and my witnessing of the abuse you experienced were the only threats I ever posed to you and the unhealthy dynamics in the system behind.
A system that disconnected you from your heart and made it blind.
We both know, what is hidden deep inside your heart.
You kept the crown, the whip, and the ring 😉
Five years… I’ve served your fears, traumas and projections long enough…
I am truly grateful that you showed me my biggest shadows and weaknesses.
I’m truly grateful that you forced me to realize my true potential.
I am grateful to you for giving birth to the Princess of Tabaristan 🙏🏽
Five years I have honored you as the goddess that is the mother of my firstborn.
I have loved and treated you like a goddess.
Five years I have hoped that your heart will be stronger than your fears.
I have gifted you my firstborn… the light of your life…
For one momemt, I was at the brink of war… getting sucked into that frequency, once I returned to Austria.
But a decision like this to make requires a blessing of the Gods.
In the ancient times, before you were allowed to ask the Oracle of Delphi, you had a preparation phase of a few days, sometimes weeks to identify the right question. Once you had the right one you were allowed to consult the Oracle.
Arriving at my hotel at Delphi, I did the ritual – cleansing myself, meditating and going through the process of finding the right question – the dice…
I asked all sort’s of questions… what I should do, how I should do, when I should do… but non was the right one.
I draw a card for the Here and Now… Celebration – depicting three ecstaticly dancing women…
I ask: Is ecstatic dance my path?
It’s the right question!
WTF, seriously, like, the only thing I don’t question in my life right now – and DON’T want to question – is Sufi Ecstatic!
“Just because she wants to remain in the center of your attention, it doesn’t mean that you should let her be. It’s not about her anymore. It’s only about your children!”
Ok… there we go…
I walk down the path towards the Apollo Temple…
My mind goes crazy… I get caught up in my headfuck: The answer is, no! It is no! It’s not my path… how shall I tell Momo… what was all of this good for…
Chill, man, chill, wait for the answer of the Gods…
I sit there, build an alter, ask for the spirits of all the directions to come for support… I start to tell the Gods how I failed them…
“Don’t be so harsh on yourself… you are human… you are flawed… so are we Gods…
You came to ask a question… and don’t ask the question on going to war again. We answered it last year!”
Is ecstatic dance my path?
“What’s your relationship with Momo?”
It struck me… like, the first thing I always do when I have anything smelling like a meaningful encounter is drawing cards.
So it took the mother of my child dragging me to Delphi, asking for the Gods’ blessings to break my silence, only to sit here in front of the Gods wittnessing my first draw with Momo?!
“No, it’s for you to do your first draw with Momo at this sacred space, so you witness it yourself without ever doubting it!”
The first draw, usually is the the one that shows the full potential…
Our composit energy:
The Lovers
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That very moment, Momo writes and asks me to ask the Gods about his path as ceremonial leader and as a father…
I connect to Apollo and give the response.
Eventually he says: Your hear is too big not to share it with the whole world!
I share Apollos messages with Momo and bring my attention back to The Lovers.
I never drew The Lover on First Draw…
For a Sufi, The Lovers is the highest card he can draw…
It’s not about romantic love…
It’s not about sexual love…
It’s about the pure frequency of LOVE
Momo is pure love…
And tapping into his frequency, it amplifies my love frequency… and through our work we radiate limitless love into the world…
After so many years of restricting my heart, my love frequency and the way that I allow myself to love, it’s about being what I once was… when I started On A Trip
“This is the answer to all of your questions you came here with today… become pure limitless love again… your heart is too big not to share it with the world! You found a heart brother, a true mirrow, a heart that connects you to the divine! From now on, radiate pure love!”
In ancient times kings preparing for war would go to Delphi asking the gods for their guidance and their blessings.
The events in the last few weeks lead me to the conclusion to finally break my silence.
I know if I do, she will bring hell upon me with the resources she has.
But I have nothing to lose any longer.
And I’m no longer ready to endure what I did for so long for the sake of my loved ones.
Red lines have been crossed!
Over the last three weeks I’ve been preparing, screening all the evidence I have – which is a lot – and talking to the people I needed to. Now, I pay a visit to the gods in Delphi asking the gods for their guidence and blessings.
I always wanted my version of the truth to be told but for the sake of peace and respect I held back.
today is your fourth birthday. I remember very well the day and moment you were born and the beauty of the hours, days, weeks and month thereafter.
I love you so much!
You don’t know how much I do…
I’m so sorry, I cannot participate in your life as much I would like to.
And I always will… you are my sun!
Perhaps you will wonder if I loved you enough. Never question that… I do!
One day you will understand that people always try to do the best they can… and still often fail to do the right thing, although they should have known better.
The reason being, that we are conditioned to do and believe what we do and believe. And often the bond to our family is so strong that we keep repeating the stories and the trauma we experienced ourselves.
Jesus once said “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”
And rather than repeating the trauma we experienced ourselves and passed on to you, transcend it. Be better than us rather than repeating it and by that understanding it to be able to forgive us.
I ask you, from the bottom of my heart, forgive your mother and me as we know not what we did. We were not conscious! Be conscious and forgive us without doing the same mistakes we did.
A seven year cycle was closing as seven years earlier I initiated my new life by going to OZORA for the first time.
Seven years later, I would close that cycle by being an artist/healer at Boom.
What a special day…
One year earlier I was baptised in the lake of Boomland with the name of Ahasveros.
One year later I was using that name as my artist name at Boom.
What a special day…
That day, I lost my fire-agate ring at the communion performance with Momo… my most precious ring, that also used to be my master ring for twelve years.
Twelve days later – dancing with the gods in OZORA – I realized it was my gift to Momo of our mystical union.
I have the habbit to wear rings that are precious to me for some time and pass them on to a person I love… with my energy and experience.
And when I lost that ring on 23.07.23 I believed this one I would never pass on.
Boom Festival 2023…
I invited Momo to join me as my co-artist for my Sufi breathwork and whirling meditation. He is a cacao ceremony facilitator and ecstatic dance DJ.
Before Boom, we hardly had time to meet and prepare. At Boom we connected deeply and spend a lot of time together.
Momo is a heart brother. He is love. He radiates love.
On Sunday, July 23rd 2023 at 7 pm we had our performance together at Chi Temple.
We were quite curious to see how many people would join us to such an event. We didn’t expect too much as it was announced as a meditation, not an ecstatic dance combined with sufi meditations.
At seven we started. I asked Momo to open the ceremony and then he passed the word to me…
“Doorood Boom… a Sufi is one who sees life through the heart… a Sufi is one who lives truth through love!”
I continue explaining the Sufi breathwork and the whirling.
And then, Momo puts the music on for the meditations…
At the beginning the Chi Temple was already quite full… during the meditations it continued to fill up.
From whirling we shift towards the ecstatic dance.
The frequency went super-high quickly. Not only the crowd started to experience ecstasy but also Momo and me, we were ecstatic and drunk by the frequency.
The crowd exploded, the temple was packed – as more and more people were attracted by the frequency – and as more people started to join, they started to dance all around the temple too.
When the ceremony was over, everyone was super-high, super-ecstatic. People would come to us, hug us, thank us, express their gratitude, telling us it was their “Boom Moment 2023” – some even said ever. Over the course of the final three days at the festival people would continue to approach us and thank us.
And still now, four weeks later, people keep sending us messages like this one we just received:
“We joined Chi Temple where you played because we were captivated by the music and the JOY of the people dancing …. The music and the moment were so beautiful that we cried out of joy for 20 minutes after the end of the mediation. Thank you and the Sufi master for making us feel this unconditional love with so many people at the same time, the merging between all of us was…. magical! Thank you again, LOVE”
When the stage facilitators came to us telling us that our ceremony was the best one on that stage thus far, we realised that really something special had happened and it was not just us feeling high by the frequency.
We were super high out of joy and ecstasy having created and experienced what we did.
And then I realised, after thirteen years I lost the ring that used to be my master ring for twelve years. The last ring I got as a bachelor… the ring I wore during my divorce opening up my new life… the ring I wore during my TEDx speech… the ring I wore when I witnessed the birth of my daughter.
It kinda was an irony that I lost that ring that was forged by a Sufi during that Sufi ceremony.
Instantly, I said “I guess it was not supposed to be mine any longer. Whoever finds it will be blessed and enjoy it.”
Eventually, someone would find it that night and give it back to me. But I knew losing it was a sign and it was not mine any longer…
Later, when I sat with Momo, I looked at my ring and pulled it off my finger.
“I believe it was no coincidence that I lost it… it is time to pass it on…”
I hand him over the ring.
“A Sufi master has forged it! Now, you are a Sufi brother”
Three nights later, the final night at Boom, we met just before I went to rest early so I could leave early the next morning to meet my daughter.
“We’ll call it Sufi Ecstatic… let’s carry that medicine out into the world.”
Twelve days later at OZORA in the middle of my dance I realise that not just something new was born on 23.7.23… by gifting that ring to Momo, it was our mystic union… like Rumi meeting Shams…
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